I understand how you feel about talking about VHL. I find it easier to talk to people in the online support group than I do my family and friends. They are supportive, but those who have or are experiencing anything to do with VHL seem to be more supportive and helpful.
I had a tumor removed from my brain in April and 2 tumors removed from my kidney on the in October. I was really scared about the kidney surgery, but everyone here helped me get through my fears. I knew because of them what to expect, and I found the greatest comfort here.
It is hard to deal with, but if you need someone to talk to, I am here.
If I can't help you with certain things, someone here can. I still have
my fears, and my down times, but the group pulls me through.